Sunday, May 30, 2010

fashion. [149]

this is not deep but i felt like sharing my non-Spiritual side.
i love fashion. but not in a narcissistic way but in an artful and creative way.
please, forgive me.
i'm addicted to lookbook.

Friday, May 28, 2010

friday night. [148]

I have climbed highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you
I have run
I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls
Only to be with you

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in his fingertips
It burned like a fire
This burning desire

I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one
But yes I'm still running

You broke the bonds
And you loosed the chains
Carried the cross
Of my shame
Oh my shame
You know I believe it

But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for

may day. [147]

defiler of the Sabbath.
dishonorer of my mother and my father.
woman of wrath.
woman of greed.
i swear, i've done them all
or at least, thought about it.
i think the thoughts
whether or not i see them through
but by grace
You have saved me
go and sin no more.
at least i'm trying to

commercialism. [146]

Christianity and advertising.
i feel like Christians are advertising their faith. with catchy and cheesy knock-offs like abreadcrumbandafish. i used to love these shirts. i thought that they were clever. a way for Christians to have those cool shirts but preach the gospel at the same time.
now, they annoy me.
i feel it's a cheap imitation. and that Christians should stop wearing stuff like that.
after all, people will should know we're Christians by our actions not our bumperstickers.

praise the Father, praise the Son. [145]

worship is more than a song. but the song matters too.
i used to say that worship was my life and praise was when i sang because worship is so much more than a song we sing. when people decide to worship something, it used to mean that they devoted their whole lives to that something. it's not that way anymore. worship is singing a few songs and that's it. we forget to move into action. but if we rank missions or worship ahead of one another, we end up ruining both. when they should be used together. when we sing praise, we meet Him there in that moment.

luke 4:18-19, the Spirit of the Lord is on me, because He has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoner and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor. 2 corinthians 3:18, and we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord's glory, are being transformed into His likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit. ephesians 6:11-12, put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. for our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

but we need to continue to grow in Him after we met with Him.
we need to come together and go forth. as well as come together and worship.
missions flows directly from the worship of the Church. it involves how we treat others. living a life of true worship means feeding the hungry, welcoming the stranger, clothing the naked, and visiting the sick and imprisoned.

matthew 25:31-46,31-33"When he finally arrives, blazing in beauty and all his angels with him, the Son of Man will take his place on his glorious throne. Then all the nations will be arranged before him and he will sort the people out, much as a shepherd sorts out sheep and goats, putting sheep to his right and goats to his left. "Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Enter, you who are blessed by my Father! Take what's coming to you in this kingdom. It's been ready for you since the world's foundation. And here's why:
I was hungry and you fed me,
I was thirsty and you gave me a drink,
I was homeless and you gave me a room,
I was shivering and you gave me clothes,
I was sick and you stopped to visit,
I was in prison and you came to me.'
"Then those 'sheep' are going to say, 'Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry and feed you, thirsty and give you a drink? And when did we ever see you sick or in prison and come to you?' Then the King will say, 'I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.' "Then he will turn to the 'goats,' the ones on his left, and say, 'Get out, worthless goats! You're good for nothing but the fires of hell. And why? Because—
I was hungry and you gave me no meal,
I was thirsty and you gave me no drink,
I was homeless and you gave me no bed,
I was shivering and you gave me no clothes,
Sick and in prison, and you never visited.'
"Then those 'goats' are going to say, 'Master, what are you talking about? When did we ever see you hungry or thirsty or homeless or shivering or sick or in prison and didn't help?' "He will answer them, 'I'm telling the solemn truth: Whenever you failed to do one of these things to someone who was being overlooked or ignored, that was me—you failed to do it to me.' "Then those 'goats' will be herded to their eternal doom, but the 'sheep' to their eternal reward."

we need worship and missions; they are essential and inseparable.

don't leave. [144]

i've been struggling with a question. i don't know the answer.
when is it okay to ask people to leave the Church?
i can't think of any reason.
but i'm sure there are Bible answers.
i just don't know where.
time to read my Bible.

rolodex propaganda. [143]

i have a problem with televangelists. don't get me wrong, a lot of good comes from them. it's a wide way to preach the gospel of Christ. but are they really preaching the gospel? i feel like a lot of them aren't. that most of what they are saying is false. many of them promise prosperity through money if you begin to follow Christ and give money to their ministry or if you follow certain steps you'll have your best life now. when all of this is false. life is not a series of steps. our relationship with Christ is not a series of steps and we will not get monetary prosperity from following Christ or giving to a ministry without fervent prayer.
God's plan for us may have to do with us being monetarily poor but spiritually rich.
that's the gospel of Christ.
it's not about how fancy your set is, which speakers you get, how many viewers you get, how many people call in during your telathon. it's about telling the truth. promising the truth and going out to the world instead of staying in the studio.
it's all about the truth.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

lazier than furniture. [142]

Romans 12:11, Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord.
Proverbs 28:19, He who works his land will have abundant food, but the one who chases fantasies will have his fill of poverty.
Proverbs 13:4, The sluggard craves and gets nothing, but the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied.
Ephesians 4:28, He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.
Proverbs 12:24, Diligent hands will rule, but laziness ends in slave labor.

we live in a lazy culture. we desire to have jobs that don't require work. we would much rather sit around and play video games (don't get me wrong, i love them too) than go outside and run. i think this is leading to a lazy faith as well. whatever we can do without putting forth much effort. the problem is that Christianity isn't and shouldn't be a lazy faith. we were created for so much more than that. a faith that breathes.

choices and consequences. [141]

i feel as though Christians can believe that no matter what the choices they make, there will be no consequence. don't get me wrong, much of what grace does is erase karma. but when we choose to destroy our body by not keeping it healthy, bad things will begin to happen to our bodies. arthritis. obesity. diabetes. cancer. much of it can be avoided or prevented to some extent. the Bible says that our body is a temple of the Lord's and we should keep it holy and that includes eating healthy and exercising.

the fatal wound. [140]

we've all been wounded by the Church. it sucks. i feel it's harder to get over Church wounds more than any other.
insensitivities. hypocrisy. Church politics.
the deepest wounds are the more personal wounds and pain doesn't remain in the pews, we take them with us and people on the outside see it too.
majorities of people surveyed believe Christians to be judgmental and over half of Church-goers believe it to be true. it breaks my heart because it's totally true. there has to be a remedy for this. wounds are meant to be healed.
why are Church wounds so devastating?
broken trust. deeper vulnerability. expecting perfection.
john 10:10, the thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. jeremiah 17:9, the heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. who can understand it? ephesians 4:23, be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you. romans 8:28, and we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. 1 chronicles 16:22, do not touch my anointed ones; do my prophets no harm. romans 13:7, give everyone what you owe him: if you owe taxes, pay taxes; if revenue, then revenue; if respect, then respect; if honor, then honor.
i decided to let the word of God speak on how healing can take place. i believe that God can heal my Church wounds. and i know that He'll the Church and her wounds and make her an agent of change and healing to a broken world.

your love is extravagant. [139]

1 corinthians 13:13, and now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

lots of things are revealed in Christ's love.
i will know what matters in situations not necessarily why those situations occurred.
i will see His plan. at least part of it.
i will be assured of what is important in this life.
maybe we should love more extravagantly. even in the pain and hurt.

Friday, May 21, 2010

all i wanted. [138]

i want you to want me. i need you to need me.
this is resounding in my head. while i know that God doesn't need anything. He wants us to want Him. i've mentioned robot love before and how God doesn't want that. forced love is not genuine love.
as we know Jesus better, His divine power gives us everything we need for living a Godly life. He has called us to receive His own glory and goodness. and by that same mighty power, He has given us all of His rich and wonderful promises. so make every effort to apply the benefits of these promises to your life.
God filled us with desires and Himself as the fulfiller to those desires. knowing Him, we can unlock His promises. we don't need to look for validation in anyone else. God wants us to realize this. He desires that we desire Him. to be close to Him. everything we need is found in our relationship in Christ.

bitter taste. [137]

grace conquers bitterness.
i think that Christians get tired of Christians. especially when they disappoint us. the pastor committed adultery. a sibling gossiped about us. our parents get a divorce. a friend left us when we needed them most.
so we decide that we can fix our wounds on our own and feel justified and instead of being disappointed again, we leave the Church. but soon, we realize we have a bitter attitude. we've lost faith in Christians so we begin to question God and it begins to be hard to imagine finding away towards healing between you and the Church and God.
i know i say this a lot but it's very true.
grace changes everything.
what if we looked at all of our hurt through the eyes of grace.
broken people cannot mend broken people. knowing this is a step towards having grace for people.
maybe we should change our expectations. it can change our reaction when people disappoint us.
grace for others is also the key to healing for our wounds.
grace isn't an excuse for others and it does not absolved them from consequence.
we need to remember that it's not our place to administer that consequence. [this reminds me of batman and his rule to not kill his villains but to leave them to the justice system]
grace is for the strong, not for the weak.

friends don't let friends dial drunk. [136]

you are who your friends are.
it's very true. if your friends aren't encouraging you forward in your Spiritual life, there's a good chance that you are staying exactly where you are.
our choices begin when we choose the friends we get involved with. we become like our lives.
it might be time to look around at the people we're hanging out with. are they the kinds of people you want to be like? if your friends are going where you don't want to be, leave and head the opposite direction. find something better. the world needs better people.

honor and harmony. [135]

honor your parents that it may go well with you.
what does it mean to honor my parents? how do i honor them?
our parents do want the best for us. but our best and their best can differ greatly. so how do we honor our parents and still make our own choices?
throughout the Bible, we are continually reminded to honor our parents.
children, obey your parents because you belong to the Lord, for this is the right thing to do. honor your father and mothers. if you honor your father and mother, things will go well for you and you will have a long life on earth.
maybe we shouldn't shun our parent's advice. maybe we should listen to what they have to say instead of automatically assuming they have no idea what are going through. we do need to keep in mind that are not perfect either.
always be humble and gentle. be patient with each other, making allowance for each other's faults because of your love. make every effort to keep yourselves together with peace.
we show respect and honor toward our parents by being patient with them and understanding they are just like us and don't necessarily have it all figured out.
yeah, sometimes, our parents won't get us. but we should still respect them and listen to them. if we did, we would be surprised at their wisdom.
to honor our parents is to honor Christ.

assistant to the regional manager. [134]

being an RC [resident chaplain, similar to a resident assistant], has been a challenge and a blessing. i've seen the face of God in the girls on my floor. His characteristics shining through. i also had to lead a Bible study so i learned a lot about being a Spiritual leader. i'm not very good at it but i realized that we're not supposed to be. God is supposed to mold us into the proper leader that He designed us to be.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

love is the movement. [133]

1 john 3:11-17
For this is the original message we heard: We should love each other. We must not be like Cain, who joined the Evil One and then killed his brother. And why did he kill him? Because he was deep in the practice of evil, while the acts of his brother were righteous. So don't be surprised, friends, when the world hates you. This has been going on a long time. The way we know we've been transferred from death to life is that we love our brothers and sisters. Anyone who doesn't love is as good as dead. Anyone who hates a brother or sister is a murderer, and you know very well that eternal life and murder don't go together. This is how we've come to understand and experience love: Christ sacrificed his life for us. This is why we ought to live sacrificially for our fellow believers, and not just be out for ourselves. If you see some brother or sister in need and have the means to do something about it but turn a cold shoulder and do nothing, what happens to God's love? It disappears. And you made it disappear.

from death to life.
no love, no life.
they'll know we're Christians by our love not our bumper stickers.

beggars. [132]

All you great men of power, you who boast of your feats -
Politicians and entrepreneurs.
Can you safeguard your breath in the night while you sleep?
Keep your heart beating steady and sure?
As you lie in your bed, does the thought haunt your head
That you’re really, rather small?
If there’s one thing I know in this life: we are beggars all.

All you champions of science and rulers of men,
Can you summon the sun from its sleep?
Does the earth seek your counsel on how fast to spin?
Can you shut up the gates of the deep?
Don’t you know that all things hang, as if by a string,
O’er the darkness - poised to fall?
If there’s one thing I know in this life: we are beggars all.

All you big shots that swagger and stride with conceit,
Did you devise how your frame would be formed?
If you’d be raised in a palace, or live out in the streets,
Did you choose the place or the hour you’d be born?
Tell me what can you claim? Not a thing - not your name!
Tell me if you can recall just one thing,
That’s not a gift in this life?

Can you hear what’s been said?
Can you see now that everything’s grace after all?
If there’s one thing I know in this life: we are beggars all.

beggars by thrice.

Friday, May 14, 2010

buildings and mountains. [131]

i don't have time for the church when i follow You. the building has been abandoned. i could care less. for the body is being healed. fed. loved. clothes. cherished. the body is going forth into the world. the building can't move. the body is going to starving africa. to starving saint louis. Your body. many parts. is moving. in our world. becoming Your revolution. Your love, peace, healing, joy.
Your body is bringing You to our world.
Your hands. Your feet. Your heart.
we don't have time for the building when we're the body.

eat, sleep, repeat. [130]

the valid things in life need resaid.
the valid things in life need resaid.

mother's day. [129]

celebrate moms.
you don't have to clean like your mother.
mom knows what's best.
mom always has a plan.
mom knows what it takes.
mom knows who's right.
moms are a gift from God.

truth of a liar. [128]

is lying ever okay for Christians?
what's important is what tempts us to be dishonest. it is possible to be a person who fears the Lord, walks by faith and yet feels constrained in extreme, life-threatening situations to oppose evil by lying.
there are even stories in the Bible about this. like the Hebrew midwives and Rahab. when pharaoh decides to kill every Hebrew newborn, the midwives lie and tell pharaoh that the Hebrews have given birth before they even arrive, saving thousands of people. but they're not rebuked, they're blessed. when the spies in jericho are found out, they go to rahab and she hides them and when the king's messengers came, she lies and tells them that the spies went else where. she was saved during the destruction of jericho.
the bible never commends lying.
although the midwives and rahab were blessed for their faithfulness, their lying is not explicitly approved.
God hates lying.
the deceitful desires that lead us to lie need to be replaced with the truth of Christ that will lead us to truthfulness. i think it's the motives that matter. are we lying because it's necessary to defeat a certain evil or are we lying for personal gains?
everything changed for me when i heard that bonheoffer lied to the nazis to save the lives of jews.

liar, liar.
it take one to know one.

the power of prayer. [127]

i find prayer boring. i know talking to God shouldn't be. i mean, He's God. but sometimes it feels like my words are bouncing off the ceiling back to me. the silence is killing me. i'm silent as well. the fact that i can't hear Him or feel Him makes me want to be silent as well. it's hard to remember that God is my father and Jesus is my friend. that i can talk to Him as such. i feel that it must be formal for some reason. which is boring and impersonal.
do they have a class in seminary where they learn to pray? because pastors always have an eloquent way for praying.
i just want to talk to God again.

she's got a boyfriend now. [126]

relationships are difficult.
i don't know what to say because it's not up to just me. i just know that this isn't what i expected. long-distance (it's not even that far away) makes things worse.
i want to rant.
i want to get things out.
girls: don't expect your boyfriend to know what you want unless you tell them and you'll have to remind them until the day you die. or they die. don't complain. it seems like you're freaking out. no one likes a drama queen. most importantly, you deserve the best. God doesn't want you with someone who breaks your heart, bones or disrespects you. don't look for a boyfriend. let God guide you and don;t worry about how long it takes. God wants what's best for you. trust Him. always. don't compromise because you feel you have to. that's not fair for you.
boys: saying i love you in the middle of an argument usually doesn't work. yeah, it shuts us up but the problem is still there. and hanging up the phone doesn't mean thing are cured either. also, respect your girl. she deserves it. and you don't settle either. let God guide you. He knows whats best and you probably don't. pray with your girlfriend. be a Spiritual leader. if you can't be a spiritual leader now, you won't be able to in the marriage and with a family. don't expect her to do it. and prove you love her with more than just words. find out what she likes to do and the things she likes. find out who she is. get to know her.
all of this could go either way but i feel like there's a lack of men being spiritual leaders. young men. i see a lot of men falling short and a lot of women trying to pick up the slack. i don't feel this is what God planned.
in the Bible, it talks about men being the spiritual leader of the family and their wives being their helpmate, supplement, complement. but i don't see that anymore.
where are the legit spiritual leaders?
where are the young men who need to take a stand?

stress. [125]

so these next couple of weeks are going to be hell. i'm stressing about getting all of this stuff done and i'm having a hard time trusting God.
have faith always.
trust God.
trust God.
trust God.

spirit fall. [124]

i love sarah beth meyers. can i say that? it doesn't matter. at our last RC meeting, she challenged us to talk about our spiritual lives. i used to be all for that but something changed. i was very nervous about talking about my relationship with God but i realized that these girls (women of God, daughters of the King) loved me and were just there to listen. not being judged when talking about your struggles is a freeing feeling.
i dont really know where to begin. i know that God doesn't feel as close as my skin anymore. He seems farther than the moon. my prayer life is nonexistent. i'm afraid to talk to Him since it's been so long. i don't know what to say. i feel intimidated to talk to Him.
i know that through the 365 project, i have grown mentally. i've learned a lot about God and myself and the Church and how we all fit together.
i can't remember the last time i truly worshipped. my heart feels distant from even myself.
how can i get closer to God?
i'm learning so much about Him and in His word but i can't get closer to Him.
the only thing in my way is myself.

the fisherman song. [123]

jonah was a prophet. he spoke God's word throughout israel. one day, God sent jonah to nineveh. nineveh and israel were enemies. so naturally, jonah didn't want to go. he peaced out and tried to escape God. he went the opposite direction by ship. but God got pissed at jonah's disobedience and sent a storm to that ship and jonah knew that it was God. so he told the sailors to throw him overboard. they were all for that. but jonah didn't drown. God sent a large fish to swallow him. so then, after all of this, jonah talked to God and thanked Him for rescuing him and told God that he'd go to nineveh. so God had the fish vomit jonah on the beach. yum. so jonah went nineveh and warned the people that they needed to confess their sins to God or else God would destroy their nation. they people obeyed jonah and repented it so God forgave them and did not destroy them. hooray! but jonah was upset, he wanted nineveh to be destroyed. he actually sat on a hill outside the town and waited for God to destroy nineveh. but God told jonah that He cares about the people from every nation.
jonah learned a lesson we all need to learn. instead of sitting and waiting for God to destroy sinners, we should remember that He love all nations. He pursued them passionately through jonah. He did not stop. through jonah's disobedience, He sent a storm. through jonah's jumping ship, He sent a fish. through jonah's prayer, He had the fish vomit him up, right at nineveh. through jonah's words, He sent forgiveness. through jonah's bitterness, He sent a tree and destroyed it to make jonah realize that God cares for everyone.
jonah's story also shows the importance of following God and trusting Him. jonah was afraid of the ninevehites and wanted them dead. opposite of God's plan. God had a better plan for israel and nineveh. peace.
obedience to God equals peace. maybe not physically because we all suffer. but there's definitely a spiritual peace.

enemy. [122]

is it right to want our enemies to suffer?
it's hard to say because david, a man after God's own heart, called out to God for his enemies to suffer. jeremiah asked God to smite his enemies so he wouldn't die. jeremiah was a prophet. and he asked God to kill people. wow. i mean, it's very human to want revenge. to want people to suffer because we suffered under them. it's how weird how a lot of things changed when Jesus started talking. turn the other cheek. pray for our enemies so that it will go well with you.
treat them with kindness and respect because it will be like pouring hot coals on their heads. being nice is revenge? i feel as though i'd effect my enemies differently and more efficiently if i treated them with respect. they'd pay more attention to me. but it's not about me. it's about God. God says that vengeance is His and we shouldn't look to have our enemies suffer.
grace is a beautiful thing. it's a difficult thing. it's the hardest thing to give when we've been wounded. but we're called to Christ-like and give grace. being human is so hard. i want to seek revenge. i want those who make me suffer to suffer.
where do we draw the line from protecting ourselves and giving grace? Christ Himself said that it would be hard work to walk in His footsteps.
i remember reading shane claiborne, he wrote Jesus for president and the irresistible revolution. i can't remember which book but he talks about what turning the other cheek meant and mean. it meant that they had to look you in the eyes when they went to hit you again. the eyes are very powerful. they can tell a lot about a person. when you look the person who is hurting you in the eye, they see another person - a strong person. and the changes everything. grace changes everything.
my mom is great at giving out grace. i think you have to be if you're a great parent. but my mom has been taken advantage of bu people who she helps but she still helps them. she loses trust. but she still helps. i question her sometimes but when i read about Jesus, i see that my mom is a woman after God's own heart. she's crazy as hell but so was david. she's not perfect and she realizes that no one else is and that they need grace just like she does. she doesn't let them suffer.
i know that effects them.
i've seen it. they question her. they know that they don't deserve it.
i'd rather have that effect on a person than one they expect.

[never wear your own band's t-shirt.]

Monday, May 3, 2010

forget love. [121]

she had this
glow on her face
grace in her step
joy in her heart
he longed to understand
then he felt His presence
and everything made sense
the glow on her face
was His glory
that grace
oh the grace
was a gift from Him
her joy was His
on her life
she fell in love with Him
a long time ago
and everyone
could tell
they were one

her face is clouded.
her heart is broken.
she felt a glimpse
of Him today
she spilled her heart
for him today
well, He, He listens
and responds
and he, well, he
he sits there silent
His love is always present
no matter how much
she cheats on Him
with him
his love
sometimes feels
closer than her skin
farther than the moon
but she loves them both

no karma. [120]

what comes around goes around.
i have to say that i don't entirely agree with this. at least, mot in the aspect that it happens in this lifetime.
i do believe that if one doesn't change his lifestyle and commit his life to Christ that he will be condemned to hell.
but have you thought about the sinner on the cross next to Jesus? he was criminal deserving of hell but Jesus grants him access to be with Him in paradise. paradise. all fall short of the glory of God and are deserving of death. but God grants us karma. right? life when deserving of death is karma. right? no.
God goes beyond our pretty belief of karma and grants us grace.
if karma was true, all the good people would be rich and the mobsters would be poor.
but the bad is having their best life now. while Christians wait patiently for our best life ever later. don't get me wrong, we need to seize everyday God blesses us with. but to honor God. give Him pleasure. to serve Him. to serve others. our reward is not the worldly material things of our lives. but gifts of serving and spiritual, relational things of God. they'll last longer than that i-phone and than karma you cling on.

first date. [119]

dating God.
i really don't like the sound of it. sounds like a lame Christian fad. i'm not one for fads. i understand how important it is to remember that we are the bride of Christ. there is so many amazing parallels to marriage and our relationship to Christ. [it's possible that i might write about that.]
but dating? no, i'm not going to do that. fall in love with my Creator? yes. pursue Him passionately? yes. date Him? no.
i understand making sure your heart is God's before giving it to someone else. i definitely began that way. so the beginning was great. but i took my heart from God and gave it to someone else. dating is a dangerous game. so is falling love but in a different way. dating God just doesn't seem right to me for some reason. i picture Christian women saying to men, i can't date you. i'm dating God. seems like a cop out. i agree with waiting to date. one of the best choices i ever made. but dating God? i just can't wrap my mind around it.
it doesn't make sense to me. maybe if someone explained it to me. dating seems so temporary. a marriage doesn't. i guess that's why i can't see that more so than dating God.
i want to be the bride of Christ not His girlfriend.

[and he doesn't say anything.]

like a boss. [118]

God as our boss?
of all the things to describe God, boss is not one of them for me.
my question is, how can someone think as God as their boss?
i can picture my mom saying that when she doesn't agree with her boss.
some people might think they have no choice. [you always have a choice.]
to follow God or not to follow God.
i feel as though you can't have God as your boss because when you have a boss, you do everything to your glory so you look good. so you can get that promotion. but with God it's different. we do everything we put our hand on for the glory of God. and we do it with joy. [usually]. if we're doing something for the glory of our boss. we get pissed. we want the attention. the glory.
i seriously hope i don't get pissed when God gets the glory. i mean, we're supposed to find joy in that.
i find that God wants to guide us not to tell us what to do.

i'm really tempted to hang up the phone.